A Dilemma

This was written many months ago in the depths of my despair. 

Here’s my dilemma.

I believe relationships are hard work. I also believe in true love. Even in true love relationships are hard work. Things go wrong and you have to work together to fix them. If you love someone you never walk away. You figure it out and you fight for it…no matter what. This is a basic core belief.

I walked away. I was hurt so badly that my core belief wasn’t enough to hold it together.

So if I can walk away…what is it that I believe in? How do I rationalize and justify that in my heart?

How can I think another person would trust me to love them deeply enough to never walk away
…when I can’t even trust myself to do that?

If walking away wasn’t breaking a core belief then in the end I wasn’t in love. Was I?

When did it stop? Did it fade away or die suddenly?

KB~